Everything but the Truth

  For Bree Ogden—I hope you read this book,

  remember how amazing Seattle is, and move back.

  Pitch Perfect just isn’t the same without you.

  CONTENTS

  Chapter One

  Chapter Two

  Chapter Three

  Chapter Four

  Chapter Five

  Chapter Six

  Chapter Seven

  Chapter Eight

  Chapter Nine

  Chapter Ten

  Chapter Eleven

  Chapter Twelve

  Chapter Thirteen

  Chapter Fourteen

  Chapter Fifteen

  Chapter Sixteen

  Chapter Seventeen

  Chapter Eighteen

  Chapter Nineteen

  Chapter Twenty

  Chapter Twenty-One

  Chapter Twenty-Two

  Chapter Twenty-Three

  Chapter Twenty-Four

  Chapter Twenty-Five

  Chapter Twenty-Six

  Chapter Twenty-Seven

  Chapter Twenty-Eight

  Chapter Twenty-Nine

  Chapter Thirty

  Acknowledgments

  The If Only Line

  CHAPTER ONE

  I found my new boyfriend, I type into my phone, and I’m about to walk into his apartment. ALONE!!

  I click Send and dart a glance up and down the hall, but the building is silent. Not even the slightest muffled sounds resonate beyond the doors on either side of the corridor. Until my mom and I moved into the building three months ago, I didn’t even know it was possible for a place to be filled with so many people and still be dead silent.

  Especially since the shmancy-fancy decor looks like it should be accompanied by an orchestra or angels singing or something.

  My phone chirps, and I open the reply from Alex, my best friend. How hot are his liver spots? Does he have any hair left?

  I chuckle and shove my phone back into my pocket without replying, then pick up the tray from the polished, gleaming sideboard, careful not to knock over the towering vase of fresh flowers. Today it’s peonies.

  I step into apartment 204, bracing myself against what I know will happen next. I make it just three steps across the travertine tiles before I hear his gravelly voice, always a little off-key.

  “O Christmas tree, O Christmas tree,” he belts out at the top of his lungs. The space is filled by his voice, followed by a deep, chest-rattling cough.

  Even though the joke got old, oh, two months ago, and even though it’s June twentieth, I can’t keep from smiling at Mr. Graham, who very much has his own hair . . . even if it is Santa Claus white.

  Actually, if the dude could grow a beard, he could probably work all December at Macy’s.

  Mr. Graham grins back, his eyes sparkling as if he’s proud of his on-the-spot wittiness. But he knows he’s been singing Christmas carols every time I walk into his apartment; unlike some of the other folks who live here, his memory is just fine.

  “How lovely are your branches,” I sing back, in what is probably the second-worst singing voice in the world, after his. I’m really more of a classic art person than a performing arts person.

  I set his lunch tray down on an oak barley-twist side table, careful not to knock over the glass of water I’ve brought. The table is almost a hundred years old, assuming it’s not a reproduction.

  I pull the stainless steel lid off his lunch with a dramatic flourish, like we’re on a Food Network show and I just presented him with a gourmet lunch I crafted out of an absurd list of ingredients like wasabi peas and Pop-Tarts.

  “Thanks, Holiday,” he says, then drops the recliner’s footrest with an ear-splitting screech. The man could probably have any chair he wants, but he sits in one that looks like it was purchased in 1982.

  “Plain old Holly is fine,” I say, removing the Saran Wrap from the top of his water glass. He doesn’t need to know I’m not actually named after a holiday but instead the decidedly unglamorous Holiday Inn where my parents met.

  “But then my Christmas carols won’t make sense. And Holly is boring,” he counters, “just like this chicken.”

  “Now, now, chicken is good for you,” I say, resisting the urge to point out that it was cooked by an award-winning executive chef and his army of sous-chefs, so there’s no way it’s boring. “You know you’re supposed to be watching your weight.”

  “I’m seventy-eight,” he barks. “I don’t give a crap about my weight.”

  I chuckle, pulling a Seattle Chocolates truffle from the pocket on my frilly lace apron. I don’t have to wear it, but Sunrise House is kind of the best place in the world to wear an apron made entirely of patchworked doilies. Ms. Hannigan, in 208 down the hall, always gets a kick out of seeing me in something I made from a discarded box of her stuff. Plus I put a picture of it on Pinterest, and it has, like, nine hundred pins or something, proving that it’s awesome. And if you ask me, I am rocking the heck out of this doily apron.

  “I know.” I drop the treat onto his plate. “But don’t tell anyone I gave you that.”

  “Lips are zipped,” he says, his eyes twinkling.

  I try not to roll my eyes, because he’s totally going to brag to his neighbor about having chocolate. One of these days I’m going to get into trouble for sneaking him so much sugar.

  He unrolls his fabric napkin, spreading it out on his lap. “I ever tell you about the time I rode a horse into a bar?”

  I grin. “About a thousand times, yes.”

  “You ride a horse into a bar and you can get lippy with me, missy.”

  “I’m not old enough to go into a bar,” I say. “Even without the horse.”

  “Huh.” He studies me, as if he just remembered I’m only eighteen.

  Melodic chimes fill the air, and I glance at the antique grandfather clock in the corner of his apartment. “Whoops, gotta go,” I say. “See you later!”

  “Hold up,” he says, waving his hand.

  I try to hide my grin as I accept the tip he’s holding out, bobbing my head. “Thanks.”

  He grunts in acknowledgment as I shove the five-dollar bill into my pocket. Another tip, another five bucks toward college.

  He doesn’t have to tip me. I’m not an official employee here. He could call the front desk and have someone else deliver it, since that’s one of the many complimentary amenities available to residents.

  But I bet the regular delivery people don’t sneak him chocolate.

  “Come back at dinner,” he calls out.

  I raise a finger and waggle it at him. “No way. Come to Amuse-Bouche tonight and maybe I’ll hook you up with more sugar.”

  “I hate that silly restaurant. It’s pompous and crowded.”

  I grin. Mr. Graham is one of the few residents who doesn’t seem to enjoy his posh surroundings. Like his choice in chairs, he seems to prefer the more . . . comfortable things in life. I get the feeling his kids are the wealthy ones, not him—so he’s endlessly out of place here.

  Like me.

  I can’t say I blame him. Amuse-Bouche is the largest of Sunrise’s three restaurants, but it is rather fancy, in an annoyingly self-aware kind of way. The name is French, I think, but I have no idea what it means.

  “I know you hate it, but think of all the ladies who will miss you if you don’t make an appearance . . . ,” I say, purposely trailing off as I head to the door. He’s still grumbling in his chair as I slip out of his apartment and back into the wide, bright halls of Sunrise House.

  As the glossy brochure says, this place is where “we welcome your loved ones at the dawn of their most wonderful years!”

  They leave out the part where they welcome only the ridiculously, prepos
terously rich. The place was built in a slightly open V shape, and almost the entire bottom floor, except for a few staff apartments, is reserved for the amenities. There are three restaurants, plus a spa, a ballroom where residents can take lessons with Blackpool champion ballroom dancers, an extra kitchen just for cooking lessons, and an opera-house-slash-theater for guest performances. We’ve had actual Broadway plays come through before they opened at the Fifth Avenue Theater in downtown Seattle.

  The rooms, located on levels two through four, are large and luxurious, with marble floors and warm yellow paint. I think the color is supposed to remind people of gold. Like, I think they literally want people to remember how rich they are every time they look at the wall. And you can see Lake Washington from basically any apartment in this place.

  Not long after I moved in here with my mom, I went on a walk, and I saw a tiny lot with lake frontage down the street. It was a million dollars for a postage-stamp-size plot of dirt. I mean, I knew Mercer Island was expensive. I guess people like that it’s surrounded by Lake Washington, but it’s not all cut off like a regular island, since it’s connected to both Seattle and Bellevue by the I-90 bridges.

  Sunrise House has some of the best lake frontage there is, wide and flat and green, with the most beautiful sunrise views I’ve ever seen, hence the name. So I don’t even want to know how much the ten acres Sunrise House sits on is worth, let alone the building itself. But I guess they needed the expansive lot for the small marina, the tennis courts, and the wide green lawns with their sprawling pathways, said to be “perfect for that lazy Sunday afternoon stroll.”

  Plus, the leasing manager is the best money can buy.

  And yeah, okay, the manager is my mom, but she is the best. She knows exactly how to bring in new residents, and she’s already filled several vacant units in the three months since we moved in. I would know, because she celebrates every time, and I sip sparkling apple cider while she has champagne. And trust me, it tastes way better than the Capri Sun pouches I grew up on.

  I round the bend in the hall—the turn that marks the center of the V—making my way back toward the front entry where Amuse-Bouche is located. According to the brochure, having on-site restaurants instead of dining halls or cafeterias makes the residents feel like they’re on vacation and not put out to pasture. I mean, it didn’t say it exactly like that, but I think that was the point they were making.

  Ahead, forks and spoons clatter against what I know to be beautiful china. It looks like the special-occasion stuff people register for, for weddings or whatever, except they use it at every meal. I never even knew that was a thing until we moved in here. They’re not even dishwasher safe, so some poor schmuck has to wash each plate by hand.

  I pause near the enormous columns that circle the room like sentries guarding the residents. It’s easy to see why they placed this restaurant so close to the front door—it embodies the whole Caesars Palace–esque, over-the-top luxury decor of Sunrise House, from soaring, coffered ceilings to the gilt-framed paintings to the Italian marble floors. They even make the waiters wear tuxedos.

  Each table has crisp white tablecloths, and each place setting has two plates and, like, six pieces of silverware. This is why I’ve never eaten at Amuse-Bouche. I don’t know how.

  Three tables have family members present, but the others are the usual suspects—gray-haired ladies with glamorous designer dresses and long strings of pearls, and men in button-downs and blazers, looking like they’re supposed to be smoking a pipe next to a crackling fireplace or something. I don’t really get it. When I’m old, I’m totally rocking yoga pants and T-shirts.

  I turn away, leaving the hustle and bustle of the restaurant behind as I head toward the soaring front entryway and my mom’s office. On either side of me, the walls are adorned with enormous paintings in hand-carved antique frames. For a long time I thought the paintings were authentic . . . but there’s no way the one near the front doors is an actual Donatello original, right?

  Before we moved in, I always thought a place like this would be filled with still-life paintings. Like hotels are. Instead, I was pleasantly surprised at the utter lack of boring fruit bowls. I mean, I guess we are catering to millionaires who have better taste than my namesake, Holiday Inn, but still.

  I continue past the restaurant, hitting the point where the ceiling soars to forty feet. I know the trim work is about ten years old, not centuries-old plaster, but every time I pass this spot, I can’t help but look up. Can’t help but admire the art, the craftsmanship, the utter awe that the view inspires. It’s the closest to the Sistine Chapel I’ll probably ever get.

  I blink it away and get back to the real world. At my mom’s office, I stop just outside the open door. Her space isn’t quite as large as Mrs. Weaver’s, the general manager, who is responsible for overseeing everything from housekeeping to nurses to entertainment for the residents. That lady has an office big enough for a gymnastics tumbling routine. She’s also kind of intimidating, in a strict, no-nonsense librarian sort of way.

  My mom’s space may pale in comparison to Mrs. Weaver’s, but it’s impressive nonetheless, with windows that showcase the perfect view so prospective tenants can admire it while they sit in overstuffed leather chairs and sign their new leases. And besides—eight years and five moves ago, our entire apartment would’ve fit inside this office.

  My mom is responsible for keeping the forty-two high-dollar units filled. The second floor has twenty of the super-popular one-bedroom units (which rent for a preposterous eight thousand dollars a month), the third floor has fourteen spacious apartments, and the fourth, the penthouse level, is home to eight sprawling suites, including the one known as the Waterview Suite, the best in the building because it sits at the center of the V and has a 180-degree view. I’ve jokingly started to call it the Watergate Suite because I heard someone say it was an “absolute scandal” that it hadn’t been rented in over a year.

  Despite the pressure, my mom’s job is basically amazing. She has an assistant. Twelve years ago, she was the assistant. And while I always believed she’d make something of herself, her meteoric rise in the years since Dad bailed and left us to fend for ourselves is still a little shocking.

  She’s sitting behind a massive oak desk, her chin resting on one hand, her hair falling into her face. It’s the same color as mine—a rich, deep brown shade, but hers is cut shorter, framing her chin.

  “I’m done delivering lunches,” I say as I step onto the Oriental rug that extends from the door to the front of her desk.

  I found the rug in a back storage room the week after we moved in. It was an absolute tragedy that it had been rolled up and left to languish in a corner, so while my mom was giving someone a tour, I perfectly and artfully placed it in her office. Even she admits it works nicely—really pulls guests into her space, welcoming them in.

  God, I’m lame.

  “Okay. Thanks, Holly,” she says, not bothering to glance up. Sometimes it’s still weird to see her sit behind the massive desk and realize she belongs there. To realize it’s her desk and she’s not playing pretend, that all her hopes and dreams and promises actually came to fruition. She’s got that framed diploma from the University of Washington—the one she worked so dang hard for—hanging on the wall, right beside my senior picture.

  “I’ll be in the billiards room if you need me,” I say, waggling my eyebrows as I wait for her inevitable reaction. She’s going to glance up and warn me not to rearrange the furniture, not to get any bright ideas.

  I mean, all my ideas are bright. And we’ve been here three months now. Surely she’s allowed to “optimize” the place a little to convince people they should move in. I so totally have her best interests at heart.

  “Mm-hmm,” she says instead.

  I grin and turn to leave. “See ya later.”

  “Hold on a sec,” she says.

  I sigh internally. So close. I glance back. “Yeah?”

  “Don’t wait up for m
e for dinner. I have a bunch of stuff to get through. There’s lunch meat in the fridge or Amuse-Bouche is serving beef Wellington. Caliente is closing down for a private party at eight.”

  “Okay,” I say, even though I don’t know what beef Wellington is. “See you . . . whenever.”

  And then I beat a hasty exit.

  Billiards room, here I come.

  CHAPTER TWO

  An hour later, I’m huffing and puffing as I lean in, my hands gripping the carved wooden armrest as I shove, hard, on the couch. It moves only an inch.

  An inch.

  Stupid freakin’ behemoth couch. I feel like I’m trying to move a Mack truck. Trees must have weighed more in the seventeenth century.

  Yeah, that makes sense.

  I groan and push again, straining with all my might. The leg screeches against the marble floor and then gives way, sliding abruptly. My hands slip off the armrest, and I slam to the ground.

  “Oomph,” I say, my forehead resting on the cool floor that had, moments ago, been covered by a French provincial sofa.

  The ground is musty. Dusty. Like, oh, I don’t know, it’s been covered by a couch for a few decades. I’ve gotten so used to the polished-until-I-can-see-my-reflection cleanliness in this place that it’s almost foreign to smell actual dirt.

  Footsteps shuffle closer, and I suddenly realize I’m not alone. Crap, I hope my mom isn’t going to bust me. . . .

  I roll over and look up into the amused, warm brown eyes of a boy close to my age. He’s leaning over, resting his hands on his knees as he peers down. I blink as if he’s a mirage and he’ll disappear. Spotting a guy like him in a place like this is harder than finding a lifeboat on the Titanic.

  But he doesn’t.

  Disappear, that is.

  Awesome. The first boy under seventy I’ve seen in this place, and he finds me lying facedown on the floor of the billiards room.

  “It was the candlestick,” I say abruptly, because it’s the only thing I can think of and I’m fighting the urge to check him out.

  He’s cute. Really, really cute. He looks . . . Costa Rican. Maybe part Native American or part African American . . . or some combination uniquely his, because I’ve never seen a guy so totally drool worthy.